Friday, December 31, 2010

and for 2011.......

Well now, I have not posted on this blog since December 20th.  Guess why......


Yes, yes, the holidays attacked me and now it is time for a fresh new start.  I have made lists upon lists of things I want to do, clean out, and accomplish in 2011 - and a list of habits I hope to incorporate.  One of those habits is to eat sensibly.  


Last year I worked on stopping when I was full, and I am pretty good at doing that.  I even surprise myself sometimes at how natural that is becoming.  (Maybe it is just age.)  Tonight I put out a nice array of snacks for my New Year's Eve celebration (shrimp cocktail, pretzels, chips & dip) and could not finish anything at all.  And that was even after skipping supper, so my ability to stop eating when I am full has pretty much become the normal for me.


What I need to work on in 2011 is eating more sensibly.  That means planning meals and maybe even doing a little cooking - yikes.  I want to incorporate more fruits and more water into my daily intake.  


I know that I put on weight during the holidays.  There were just too many parties, too many goodies, and too many fancy dinners.  It was all good and I certainly enjoyed myself, but it easily adds weight to my body.  Yes, I can add weight without blinking an eye - it is the losing weight that is hard.


However, I am optimistic about 2011.  I plan on it being a good year.  


Happy New Year to all..................

Guilty Pleasure


Once I start a jigsaw puzzle, I can barely drag myself away from the table. Doing jigsaw puzzles is my guilty pleasure, so I try to do them only at the holiday season.  This is my New Year's Eve puzzle, only I finished it by noon today.  Oops.  So I ran out to the store and bought another puzzle which I started tonight - New Year's Eve - and will finish tomorrow morning while watching the Rose Bowl Parade.

Next week I will get back to quilting again.  The holidays are over, the puzzles will be completed, and it will be time to clear off my cutting table (that will take a day), make a list of my UFO's, and get busy making/finishing some quilts.

Happy New Year to all...........

Monday, December 27, 2010

Puzzle finished...


Finished up this puzzle yesterday.  It was not an easy puzzle to do.  I kept having to refer to the picture on the box and sometimes I was just sure that a piece must belong to another puzzle.  I do love putting puzzles together though, even when my back is aching from leaning over the table.  I have another puzzle to do on New Year's Eve and then I am through with puzzles until next Christmas/New Years.


In roaming around Ravelry one day, I saw a pattern for a "potato chip" scarf.  It is named "potato chip" because you supposedly cannot do just one.  Clever.  I am using some leftover yarn I had in my meager stash just to try out the pattern.  It really should be done with a softer yarn.  However, it is fun to knit, and occupies my hands while watching TV.

My New Year's To Do list (of craft projects) is long, long, long.  Will this be the year I actually cross off every item on my list?  I say YES.  It is so easy to be optimistic around January 1st.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Puzzle Time


Each year, at Christmas and New Years, I allow myself the time to put some jigsaw puzzles together.  750 tiny pieces of puzzle pleasure.  This is not an easy puzzle, so it may take me until New Years to get it done!

Hope you are having a Merry Day also.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Getting organized in 2011 (Don't laugh)

As 2011 fast approaches, I am thinking about how I want to get myself organized.  It all starts with my desk/office area.  After seeing pictures in a few magazines of highly organized (and cute) desks, I am green with envy and determined to do something about my messes.


(Please note that the magazine pictures have NO wires showing, from the lamps or computers.  And most of the desks don't even have a computer on it.  Come on.........  get real.)


Here are pictures of my messy office. 


The wires.


The computer desk.

The auxiliary desk.


Under the auxiliary desk.

Today I spent several hours organizing the pictures on my computer.  There were 450 files of pictures to organize.  I have eliminated and re-organized 63 of those files and am up to the year 2006.  Digital pictures are mighty convenient, but keeping them organized is a daunting task.  (We won't even mention the boxes of unorganized printed pictures stored in my basement.)

I wrote out a LONG list of cleaning/organizing projects to occupy my time in 2011.  Will I ever have time to quilt or stitch or knit?  Yes I will.  I have also decided to carve out time each day for all my crafts.  

And now, since I don't have to do anything until 2011, I think I will go read a book.  

Please do not remind me of the list I made for 2010 - or the seven year goals I set back three (four?) years ago.

Ever optimistic.................

Monday, December 20, 2010

Tomato Soup


Well friends, it has been a while since I have posted to this blog.  'Tis the season of parties and luncheons - cookies and cakes - fudge and buffets - popcorn and peppermint ice cream.  Therefore, my eating smartly has suffered.

This morning I was fighting a bout of slight depression/sadness/blues, but determined to not let that mood ruin my day, I got dressed in my Christmas clothes for tonight's party.

A smart person would have waited to get dressed in their party clothes until AFTER eating tomato soup, but NO, I got dressed first.

This soup was leftover from last Thursday's luncheon and was made by a local gourmet restaurant.  Very good soup.  I was lucky to take some leftovers home.  So I put the soup in the microwave to warm up.  When the dinger dinged, I had a fleeting thought that I should probably get a hot pot holder.  But NO, I reached in with my bare hands to retrieve the bowl of soup.

You guessed it!  It spilled - all over the microwave oven, all over the counter, all over the floor, all over my clean  party clothes, and onto my right hand.  @#$%@#%@#%@#%@#$^&*& (hear me scream).  I raced over to the sink to rinse my burning hand in cold water, then frantically tried to wash out the soup from my Christmas turtleneck sweater and suede jacket.  And I cried.  A good long cry.

I cried for the spilled soup.  I cried for my stained clothes.  I cried for my burning hand.  I cried for all my laziness.  I cried for all the things I have not gotten done that I said I would do this December.  I cried because I was crying.

Then I ate my cooled down soup - what was leftover from the spill.  It was good, but certainly not worth all the drama.  That seems to be the story of my life.  Is all the food I ingest worth all the drama it creates?  Is my eating adventures worthy of a blog?  Is my struggle to lose weight so all fired important in the scheme of things?

Big sigh.  The Christmas blues have arrived I think.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

'Tis the season to be jolly........

My life is full of blessings


     and yet.....


'Tis the season to be jolly


     and yet.....


Why is it that at this time of year most of us struggle to enjoy or be "jolly"?  Why do we get so stressed just because our calendar is full?  Every year we know that this season is coming.  We know that there will be lots of parties and events to attend.  We know that there will be lots of things to do - presents to buy, baking to be done, gifts to make, and houses to clean.  Why don't we get busy in July?


And why, for some of us, does it become the most difficult time of all to mind the amount of calories going into our mouths?


I have been trying very hard to balance my intake each day.  If I go to a party or luncheon and have a calorie-laden dessert, then I have either no supper or just a salad.  


     and yet............


I can feel the weight easing back onto my body.  At home I am so careful to eat wisely so as not to mess up the loss I have already accomplished.


     and yet............


That small piece of cake, that little cookie, that home-made scone, that sip of wine, that sauce on the fish, that lick of the cooking spoon - it all adds up and I am much too inactive to work it off.  


I hold my breath each day as I put on my clothes, fearful that I am outgrowing them again.  There is no way I will get on the scale.  I know that seeing what the scale has to say will just depress me all the more and I certainly do not need to be depressed when I am already unnecessarily stressed.


     and yet..........


'Tis the season to be jolly - and thankful - and joyful.  Tomorrow is another luncheon, Friday I get my hair done (that's a GOOD thing), and Saturday is our big family party which I know will be fun.


     and yet...........


I long to have a day all to myself, at home, working on my crafts or reading.  Too many good things have been happening day after day after day and although I feel lucky and blessed, I'm full-up with sweets and full-up with activities.  It is time to settle down for a long winter's nap.



Thursday, December 9, 2010

No Sewing Here

There is no sewing going on here.  I have been busy with other things and although I am having fun and enjoying the Christmas season, I'm also looking forward to January when I can concentrate again on quilting, stitching and knitting projects.

Tonight I am having friends over for dinner and an evening of knitting and/or making some simple Christmas decorations.  The table is set.

The wreath is up on the fireplace and a Christmas card from one of my favorite people is proudly displayed.


Although I decided that I would not decorate for Christmas this year, a few favorite things have found their way onto tables and walls.  Here are a few favorite Santas.

Today (and every day) I am grateful for friends, good food, a fire in the fireplace, and wonderful smells coming from the kitchen.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Cookies

The women in our church raise money every year to give to certain charities and the way the money is raised is by selling Christmas cookies.  We bake over 10,000 cookies, filling the tables in our Fellowship Hall.  People buy boxes, get a plastic glove for their hand, and walk around the Fellowship hall filling their box/boxes with a wonderful assortment of cookies.


Since our church is small, we depend on all of the women to make cookies.  Even me!  I am NOT a baker.  I dread the cookie making time because my decorating skills leave a lot to be desired.  I can make peanut butter cookies from a package but those kinds of cookies are not acceptable for the Cookie Walk.  They want fancy cookies - decorated cookies. 


Today was the day to get down to business and make my cookies.  I set my goal at four batches.  They are all done and on trays and ready for the Cookie Walk.  


So why am I writing about this?  Because it is IMPOSSIBLE to make cookies without licking a spoon, or licking a finger, or tasting a broken cookie.  After four batches in which I did all of the above, I was sick of that sugary taste.  I'm not used to eating so much sugar or sweet stuff, and I was feeling like all my efforts to eat sensibly were lost in one afternoon of cookie baking.


Therefore, I decided to skip having my supper.  Certainly I had consumed enough calories for two extra meals at least.  I did not need to add another meal to the calorie count for the day.  It is very unusual for me to go without a meal, but a glass of milk seemed sufficient enough.


Next year I am going to plan a vacation for the week of the Cookie Walk! 

Friday, December 3, 2010

Apron

In the midst of working on various Christmas projects, I took an hour out to make this apron.

It is a panel - Cookie Jar Treats Apron by Wendy Edelson (licensed to Wilmington Prints).  There are two pockets that are cut to perfectly match the fabric.  I seldom purchase panels, but this one was well worth the price.


Too much honey.......

When I was growing up, my mother quite often made biscuits.  My dad liked honey on his biscuits.  He would put a dollop of honey on his plate and spread his biscuit with the sweet nectar.  Too often there would be honey left over on his plate, so he would take another biscuit to use up the honey.  Then of course there wasn't enough honey to cover the biscuit, so he would serve himself another dollop of honey - and on and on it would go.  The honey and the biscuits never seemed to even out.  


Fortunately my dad did not have a weight problem and eating endless biscuits with honey did not have an affect on his bathroom scale.


If only I had inherited more of his genes!  


Tonight I had some crackers and pulled out the little container of honey.  Hmmmm good.  I forgot how good honey tastes - and how good a cracker tastes with honey on it.  I was eating away, enjoying the sweet/salty taste when it occurred to me that perhaps I was racking up too many calories.  Blast.  I reluctantly closed up the honey container and put the crackers in the cupboard.  


I haven't looked it up, but is honey better for me than dark chocolate?

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Impunity

Today I was reading a blog in which the writer said she was going to "eat with impunity" in 2011.  I'm assuming she meant that she would eat whatever she wanted and not worry about it.


I think that is probably what she meant, but I looked up the definition of the word "impunity" and the common definition is "freedom from punishment".


If I eat whatever I want and don't worry about it - guess what happens?  I gain weight - I get fatter - my clothes don't fit - I look bloated - I feel sad.  Therefore, freedom from punishment would not be the result of eating with impunity.  Eating with impunity (freedom from punishment) therefore must mean that I eat thoughtfully so that I am free from gaining weight and adding fat to my body.  Eating thoughtfully keeps me free from the punishment that overeating creates.



Christmas Decorating

Today I put my tree up.
(OK, OK, so it's a little itty bitty thing - it's a Christmas Tree!)

I also put out these two place mats that I started two years ago and finally finished today.

Of course good old St. Nick (made by Lindsay) was hung in the place of honor in my living room.


A woolie made by Moe  -


a quilt made by Melanie -


and a 12 Days of Christmas quilt (made by me) -


and a Scentsy warmer with the Nativity scene
complete most of my Christmas decorating for 2010
 

(Just love that Silent Night Scentsy warmer! ! )

Bonnie

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Choices

Today I went grocery shopping and found myself constantly making choices. I had a longing for a cinnamon roll - one of those big ones with the icing - but at the grocery store you can only buy them in a package of eight.  Oh my, I certainly do not need eight cinnamon rolls.  Even one wouldn't be good, but I figured I would divide it up into thirds and eat it over three days.  However, I chose not to buy the big package and therefore no cinnamon roll came home with me.


I wanted some of that precooked bacon, but they only had the thick cut kind and I really wanted the thin kind.  So I made the choice to NOT buy bacon.


As I perused the spaghetti sauces my eye fell on the Alfredo sauce.  Yum - nice thick white calorie laden sauce.  My mouth was watering.  Then I engaged my brain and reached for the Marinara sauce.  Another better choice.


My favorite ice cream comes out this time of year - Peppermint.  As I strolled along the ice cream aisle I spotted the peppermint ice cream in a "1/2 the fat" version.  Yes!  It went into my cart.


I usually have a tendency to berate myself for my overeating, but today I am making the choice to pat myself on the back for good selections at the grocery store.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Struggle

The last few days have been a struggle for me to keep from overeating.  I think I am in that mind-set of "oh well, it is the holiday season, enjoy yourself".  That is one voice in my head and then there is the other voice begging me to restrain myself so that I can fit into all those clothes that still await my losing more pounds and inches.


At lunch today, I did not order a baked potato like I wanted to,  but instead settled for the rice that came with the meal and the broccoli - AND - I did not finish my meal, but chose to take half of it home.  That was a struggle because I could have easily eaten the whole plate full of food.  I practically had to sit on my hands to refrain from eating it all in one fell swoop.  I was full though and I was determined to listen to that full feeling.


Tonight I wanted popcorn - the regular kind that you make on the stove and smother with butter and salt.  I convinced myself that I really did not want to clean up the heavy pot and the big bowl and therefore talked myself into having a 100-calorie bag of microwave popcorn.  Just not the same.  Again, it was a struggle.


When will it be easy to make these hard decisions?  When will I not even think about it?  When will food be just fuel and not the high point of my day?

Friday, November 26, 2010

Eating when you are anxious or tired

There are all kinds of excuses that overweight people give for overeating.  I know because I fit the category.  But..............


On Thanksgiving my sister ended up in the Emergency room of a hospital two hours away from their home.  It made me anxious.  I had my turkey dinner before going to the hospital to relieve my grandniece who went to be the family advocate.  Because I was anxious and worried I hardly remember anything that I ate.  Yes, it was good, but I did not consciously eat it and savor it as I should.  Instead, I just gobbled down the turkey (pun intended) and rushed out the door. This kind of eating leads to overeating and I fear I did overeat as the day progressed.


Today I did a lot of driving (long story I won't go into) and although I enjoyed the company and enjoyed my day, I was extremely tired.  Again I ate mindlessly, shoveling food into my mouth.


Anxious and tired leads to mindless eating which leads to overeating.  That sums up the last two days for me.


Tomorrow I will be home all day with absolutely no obligations.  Tomorrow I will begin again to eat with my brain engaged.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Vegetables

Every time I go to the grocery store I pick up some frozen vegetables.  I like the mixtures and look for ones with either broccoli or corn or zucchini or red peppers or onions.  


Lately I have not prepared any vegetables except fresh produce - lettuce and broccoli.  Yet I have continued to purchase frozen veggies.  


Today I couldn't decided what to have for supper and looked in the freezer.  Oh dear - there are enough packages of frozen vegetables to last until Spring.


So what did I have for supper?  Cereal.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Busy Days

The last two days have been  busy which means that my eating was kind of messed up.


Monday morning I made soup for some friends that were coming for supper. I had never made this soup before, so I kept tasting it as it simmered.  When lunch time came, I wasn't hungry because I had had too many tastes!  Instead of a normal lunch, I snacked on celery stuffed with peanut butter and some leftover popcorn.


We had the soup for supper and it was very good.  Then we went to another friend's house and ended the evening with pie a la mode - however - both the pie and the ice cream were "no sugar added".


Today I worked at church and came home very tired.  I snacked again on leftover popcorn and when it was time for supper I, once again, was not terribly hungry.  I fixed a small salad.  Before you start to congratulate me on my restraint I must add that in spite of being quite full and satisfied, I managed to find room in my mind, heart and stomach for one oatmeal cookie.


Oatmeal is good for you, right?  

Sunday, November 21, 2010

No to Dessert - Yes to popcorn

Today was the Hanging of the Greens at church and a potluck dinner.  Oh how I love potluck dinners at church.  There is so much good food to try - an abundance of delicious tastes.  


When you get in line at the serving table, you cannot see to the opposite end and therefore do not know what is ahead.  I wanted to save room on my plate for tasting as many dishes as I could, so I only put one small spoonful of the dishes that looked good to me.  I was therefore surprised (and disappointed) when I got to the end of the table and didn't have that much on my plate.  


Then there is the dessert table.  It was laden with chocolate cakes, brownies, pies, and cookies.  As the people around me went to the dessert table and returned with two or three yummy looking items, I thought to myself, "You really, really do not need any desserts."  So I sat at my place and did not move.  I wanted a dessert (or two), but made a bargain with myself that if I skipped the dessert I could have popcorn (with butter) for supper.  Such a deal.


I'm glad I made that bargain because the popcorn tasted wonderful.  If I have to make a choice, popcorn (or peanut butter) will always win.  

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Treadmill

YES - I walked on the treadmill today.  Not for long,  but at least I know it works and is available and ready for me to use.


It was a busy day for me and I got in more steps than usual just because I was running around, in and out of stores, up and down my stairs, and back and forth in my home getting things done.  I'm worn out, but feeling proud that I was energetic all day long.


This morning I had a good breakfast (7:00am) and when I was finished I was very full.  I decided that since I was so full, I would not have lunch, but instead have an early dinner thus having only two meals for the day.  Less calories. That was the plan.


Guess what happened.  At noon my tummy was screaming, "feed me".  The big breakfast did not last as long as I had hoped it would.  I gave in and had a light lunch - one slice of cheese pizza.  


Tonight there was nothing on TV that I wanted to watch so I chose the Food Channel where they were broadcasting a series of Thanksgiving meal shows.  Oh my, the food looked so good I was drooling.  I finally decided that I better change channels, so now I'm watching QVC and drooling over Dooney & Bourke handbags.

Friday, November 19, 2010

Confidence

Even though I have only lost a small amount of weight (in the scheme of what I need to lose), it has helped my self-confidence.  I noticed it the other day when pictures were being taken of me and two of my cousins.  I usually try to hide behind someone, pull my chin up, and plaster a grimace on my face - all very unnatural.  This time I stood up straight, smiled with my whole being (I was enjoying the visit immensely), and the picture came out pretty good.


Every time I look at a picture of myself I see this enormous ugly old woman.  This time she was gone.  In her place was a pleasant looking woman who seemed genuinely happy.  I call this progress.  I really like being confident.


I don't think I have lost any weight lately and might have even gained some weight.  Why?  I have had some cookies and some extra helpings of popcorn.  Why?  Because it was there and it tasted good.  I'm still doing fairly well on stopping eating when I am full - at meals.  It is the snacking that needs to be addressed.


Today my treadmill got fixed, so no more excuses in that department.  I went downstairs to try it out and instead got engrossed in a sewing project.  When I finished the project, I headed to the treadmill to give myself some walking time and the phone rang.  The call lasted almost an hour and then it was time to head upstairs for my bedtime routine.


Tomorrow - I promise.  Really.  I mean it.  Absolutely.  

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Walking

Exercise and walking are not activities I choose to do on any regular basis.  I enjoy the results and I enjoy how good I feel afterwards, so why don't I get up off my chair and move more?


Today I had some cousins visiting and I suggested we walk uptown for lunch.  It was an easy walk, the weather was cool but pleasant, and it was enjoyable looking at the houses along the way.  Of course I had company and good conversation to occupy my mind.


So why don't I walk uptown more often?  It feels good, I enjoy it, and it is good for me.   What is the problem?  


Could I have agoraphobia?  I thoroughly enjoy walking when I am with someone, but going outside to walk when I am by myself brings out all the ridiculous excuses I can possibly invent:


1.  Too hot.
2.  Too cold.
3.  Too sunny.
4.  I might be far from home and have to use the facilities.
5.  I might fall or twist my leg and not be able to get home.
6.  It might start to rain.
7.  I might not be dressed warmly enough, or lightly enough, depending on the time of year.
8.  If I decided to walk to the grocery, I would have to carry the bags home or use a cart and I don't want to drag anything with me.
9.  If I decided to walk to have lunch, I would have to bring a book or my Kindle along and then I would worry that the restaurants would be crowded and there would be no table for me and I would have to take the meal home and so I might as well eat at home.
10. I need to stay home and spend my time thinking up excuses.


See - it all makes perfect sense.  


(OK, I will try to fit in a short walk tomorrow and leave the excuses at home.)

Scarf

Tonight I finished knitting the scarf to go with my very first knitted sweater.  Now I have a complete ensemble for a very cold day.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

When I DON'T think about food.......

Yesterday I listed my food triggers.  Today I am going to list the times when I definitely do not think about food or eating.


1.  When I am sleeping.
2.  When I am in the shower.
3.  When I am doing creative writing.
4.  When I am creating Artist's Trading Cards.
5.  When I am in church on Sunday.
6.  When I am shopping for clothes.
7.  When I am enjoying a concert or play or musical.
8.  When I am playing the piano.
9.  When I am reading my favorite blogs.
10.  When I am working on a jigsaw puzzle - after I had a bowl of popcorn to get me started.


On Tuesdays I do my volunteer job at church.  I bring my lunch.  I noticed today that when things were going along well without any problems, I had no idea what time it was and I was not hungry.  But as soon as I encountered a problem that required me to do some figuring out, I then glanced at the clock, saw that it was after 12:30pm, and decided I was very hungry and had to take a bite of my sandwich.  Had things gone smoothly I might have lasted much longer before being aware of hunger.  Interesting.



Borders on

My blue and white nine-patch quilt top is finished.  The next step is making the backing and binding - and deciding whether to quilt it myself or send it out.  (mmmmmm - me thinking - mmmmmmm)  Who am I kidding?  It will get sent out!


(Too bad the navy blue border does not photograph well - it goes so nicely with the quilt.)

Monday, November 15, 2010

What triggers thoughts of food?

Things that trigger thoughts of food/eating for me:


1.  TV ads - for crackers, or restaurants, or cookies, or grocery stores, etc.
2.  Watching the Food Channel
3.  Remembering things from childhood - Saturday baked beans, Sunday pot roast, my mother's homemade rolls, my step-mother's meatloaf.
4.  Church potluck dinners.
5.  Deciding to go to the movies (popcorn).
6.  Passing a Starbucks (Java chip)
7.  Driving home from my hairdressers as I pass Yen Yens, Panera, Portillos, Jimmy Johns, another Panera, McDonalds, Starbucks, California Pizza Kitchen, and the third Panera.
8.  When I get up, when it is noon, when it is approaching 5:00pm.
9.  When I smell garlic.
10.  Thanksgiving (I love turkey and mashed potatoes and stuffing and gravy and sweet potatoes and creamed corn and cranberry sauce and pumpkin pie and snacking all day long on crackers and cheese.)


This was a fairly easy list to make.  Tomorrow I am going to concentrate on times when I do NOT think about food/eating.  I wonder if I can come up with 10 things as easily.

Slow, slow progress

Yes, I am making very slow progress on the projects posted recently on this blog.  Today I had a chance to work on the borders for the blue & white nine-patch and hope to get them finished tomorrow.


My sewing time was made easier by the addition of a new bendable light given to me by my cousin.  Every time I threaded my needle today I hit my target the first time - and I'm sure it was because of the good light spotlighting the needle and presser foot.


While watching TV tonight I also worked a little on this Halloween stitchery.  This is a particularly slow project because the 32 count fabric is a real challenge for me to see.  I can only do a little at a time before everything starts to get blurry.  However, I so enjoy stitching, even though it goes so slowly.


Today I am grateful for -
1.  Visiting with friends.
2.  My new bendable light.
3.  Enjoying Dancing With The Stars.
4.  The Down comforter I recently purchased.


Sunday, November 14, 2010

Good Choices

Today I made a few good choices:


1.  At Sunday School I did not have a donut.
2.  At the coffee hour after church I did not have cake.
3.  At lunch I did not have a baked potato, but chose broccoli instead.


Questionable choice:  At the grocery store there was a new product - fudge covered Ritz crackers.  I bought a box and had three.   


Another good choice - not having the fourth and fifth of the above.


It is important to emphasize the good choices I make.  If I am proud of the good choices, then perhaps it will encourage me to make more good choices.  


Sometimes the choices are made for me.  I was munching on some of the leftover popcorn from yesterday when the bag fell off the table and the popcorn spilled all over the floor.  No five-second rule here - my floor was dirty and the popcorn got thrown out.  Sigh.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Popcorn

It was rainy and grey outside today.  I stayed in my PJs most of the morning, but had to get dressed to attend a memorial service at church.  As I drove home after the service, I became very nostalgic remembering grey November Saturday afternoons when I was a little girl.

We (the whole family) cleaned the house on Saturday mornings and did the laundry - the old fashioned way with a ringer washer and two rinse tubs, then hang the clothes on clothes lines either indoors or outdoors depending on the weather.  In the afternoon we did the weekly grocery shopping and errands.  Mom soaked beans on Friday night and cooked the beans all day on Saturday, known in our family as Boston Baked Beans.  When we got home on Saturday afternoon the house was filled with the aroma of baking beans.

Every Saturday night we had Boston Baked Beans, brown bread (the kind made in a can), and Waldorf salad.  It was my favorite meal.

As I drove home today I thought of those warm and cozy Saturdays with the family gathered around the dining room table.  I know I cannot duplicate those meals, but it is lovely to remember them.

I did want something comforting to eat.  I wanted to put on comfortable clothes, relax in my favorite chair, read a book, and munch on good old pop corn made on the stove.  So instead of supper tonight, I had popcorn.  Lots of popcorn.  Popcorn with butter and salt.  It was delicious.  Of course I made way too much, so I have a nice Ziploc bag of leftover popcorn to enjoy tomorrow.

Food is supposed to be "fuel", but so many times food is a comfort for me.  It reminds me of good times.  Popcorn was our Sunday night supper quite often.  Sunday dinner was pot roast or baked chicken served on the Haviland china.  A favorite meal on a hot summer day was strawberry shortcake made with biscuit dough, fresh strawberries juicy with sugar, and real whipped cream.

The favorite meal that I make is..................can you guess?..................toast with peanut butter, coffee, and grapes!!

Friday, November 12, 2010

Friday Feelings

My hairdresser is very attractive.  She is slender (in spite of having two children), has a cute figure, and dresses nicely.  I really like her and thoroughly enjoy my time with her.  She is a great conversationalist and always has a good story to tell.  


She also has a big mirror that I face as she works on my hair.  I see myself and cringe at the fat image in that mirror compared to her adorable image.  However, since I have lost a little weight, my face is not as chubby and today I didn't mind my image.  I can't say that I was thrilled, but I was much more accepting of what I was seeing.  Progress.




Have you ever had Quinoa?  I caught a segment of Giada De Laurentiis' show on the Food Channel and she was making Quinoa as a side dish.  She added some fresh herbs and it looked pretty good.  She said that Quinoa is not a pasta or a rice, but rather in the nut family.  Hmmmm.  Sounded good.  So I bought a box at Trader Joes and prepared some last night.  The recipe on the box calls for one cup, but I knew that would be too much for me, so I prepared 1/2 cup.  Even that was enough for three portions.  I didn't have any fresh herbs, but I did have some frozen "Seasoning Blend" (onions and green peppers) which I added for flavor along with some butter and salt.  It was OK as a side dish.


Tonight I heated up the leftover Quinoa but it lacked something.  So I added peanut butter.  Well, that was not so great of an idea.  It got thrown out.  In retrospect, I should have added a vegetable.  Or perhaps a little lemon zest, or maybe some beef broth.  


So my supper tonight ended up being a small dish of leftover sweet potato and a very small portion of Quinoa.  Not a very nourishing supper.  Thank goodness I had a nice green salad for lunch - full of broccoli, tomatoes, celery, and some chunks of turkey breast.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

I'm back...........

After taking a small vacation from this blog, it is time to return and perhaps rethink how I will use this space.


Today I caught a few minutes of the Rachel Ray show and the segment where a doctor was discussing obesity with a young woman.  This young woman went through gastric bi-pass surgery and after losing a lot of weight was now re-gaining that weight.  The doctor did not discuss food, or counting calories, or cutting back on fat, or exercising.  Instead, he asked the young woman to think about two things:


1.  What would you do if you were at your ideal weight that you don't do now.
2.  If you give up food as your source of comfort, what can you do to replace that comfort in your life.


One of the things she said in answer to the first question was that she would like to be in pictures with her nieces and nephews.  Oh my, do I understand that.  I just hate when people bring out cameras and want me in the picture. I hate pictures of myself.  It would be wonderful if I felt better about myself, was thinner, and enjoyed seeing pictures of me.


The second question really got me thinking.  I do love food.  I do use it as comfort.  What in my life is such a distraction that I forget about food for a while?  I thought of two things right off the bat - writing and creating.  


Writing has been an on-and-off thing with me.  Once I get started I get lost in the process and thoroughly love putting my thoughts or imagination down on paper.  It is the getting started, or finding time that prevents me from doing more writing.  Poor excuse, I know.


The creating is something new that I have recently enjoyed.  Although I have been a crafter for years (quilting, knitting, stitching), I always followed a pattern and never felt like I was actually doing the creating.  However, I am now in an Artist's Trading Card group and we are given a theme each month and have to create a 2-1/2" X 3-1/2" card with our interpretation of that theme.  It takes hours of my time and I never think about food during those hours.


All this to say that I am going to try using this blog to write about my thoughts on food.  I might sometimes list what I eat, or I may just talk about why I chose certain foods, how I felt while eating, how I managed some control, and how writing is helping me.


Potato chips.  Today at lunch I had a salad.  I decided to have some crackers and humus with the salad, but as I was eating one of the crackers I realized that I wasn't really enjoying the cracker.  So why was I eating it?  I really wanted a potato chip, but potato chips don't normally accompany a salad.  Crackers or bread seem to be acceptable accompaniments to salads, not potato chips.  No one was looking, so I put the crackers away and got out the bag of potato chips.  I had three or four chips, thoroughly enjoyed crunching on them, and was then satisfied.  I put the bag away, finished my salad, and lunch was done.  I could have eaten a whole pile of crackers in order to have my taste buds and crunch need satisfied, but instead I chose potato chips and only ate a few.  I think I made the right choice.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

11/3/10 - Food

Breakfast - Toast with peanut butter, grapes


Lunch - salad with broccoli, cauliflower and grape tomatoes.  A few crackers and some humus.  Jello dark chocolate mousse.


Supper - some cooked veggies, popcorn, yogurt.


Steps - 4,210


Today I saw one of my doctors and I told her about my quest to learn how to stop eating when I am full.  She approved of my quest and told me that her son is slender and always stops eating when he is full - even if there is just one piece of food left on his plate.  He just can't eat another bite if he is full.  However, her husband, who has a weight problem, eats everything on his plate and has no awareness of when he is full and/or he ignores that full feeling.  For many of us with a weight problem, learning to stop eating when we are full is something we have to learn - it does not come naturally.  


I'm taking a few days off from posting to this blog.  See you next Tuesday.  

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

11/02/10 - Food

Breakfast - toast with peanut butter, grapes


Lunch - applesauce, sandwich


Snack - popcorn


Supper - soup, Skinny Cow ice cream


Steps - 3,831

Monday, November 1, 2010

11/01/10 - Food

Breakfast - toast and an egg, grapes


Lunch - bowl of soup, crackers, a few potato chips, 1/2 Skinny Cow ice cream.


Supper - salad with broccoli, cauliflower & grape tomatoes, last two leftover pieces of pizza from Friday, vanilla yogurt.


Steps - 5,215

Sunday, October 31, 2010

10/31/10 - Food

Breakfast - I made some oatmeal, but after several spoonfuls I decided I really didn't enjoy it so I made a piece of toast and had some grapes.


Lunch - at Red Lobster - biscuit, salad, shrimp, baked potato.


Supper - small bowl of tomato soup, some crackers and a wedge of laughing cow cheese, some Pringle chips, and one small Halloween Kit Kat.


Steps - 2,176

Saturday, October 30, 2010

10/30/10 - Food

Breakfast - toast with an egg


Lunch - small side salad, two leftover pieces of yesterday's pizza, two wedges of Laughing Cow cheese - the two new flavors.
The blue cheese had the strong blue cheese flavor which needed to be eaten on a cracker or stuffing a piece of celery.  It was too strong for me to eat alone.  The Sun-Dried tomato will make a good snack all by itself.


Supper - small portions of mashed potatoes, creamed corn, and stewed tomatoes.  For dessert, yogurt and wheat germ.


Steps - 4,254



Friday, October 29, 2010

10/29/10 - Food

Breakfast - toast with peanut butter


Lunch - out with a friend to an Italian restaurant.  We split a delicious salad of lettuce, tomatoes, roasted red pepper and artichokes.  Then we split a wonderful pizza with sun dried tomatoes, goat cheese and artichokes.  My friend not only paid for the meal, she sent me home with the leftovers!  She offered to split a dessert with me also, but I said "no".  I just did not need any more extra calories.


Supper - warmed up the leftover half sandwich from yesterday and the leftover French fries with truffle oil.  I only ate half of the half-sandwich and just a few fries because once again I was worried about all the calories.  I had a sugar-free jello for dessert.


The supper wasn't enough to last through the evening, so I had a snack of half an apple, a spoonful of peanut butter, and a light string cheese.


Steps - 4,145

Thursday, October 28, 2010

10/28/10 - Food

Breakfast - toast with peanut butter


Lunch - out with friends.  I had a panini sandwich of chicken, red peppers and onions.  It was a huge sandwich, so I only ate half of it.  The sandwich was accompanied by French Fries that were sprayed with Truffle Oil.  The Truffle Oil taste was very slight, but increased the more fries I ate. They became addicting and I had to force myself to stop eating.  Then the management of the restaurant brought two gourmet desserts to our table.  (We were celebrating someone's birthday.)  I had a taste of each dessert.


The lunch was delicious and for a while I was doing the "poor me" thought process.  I really wanted to finish that sandwich and eat all of those fries, but I knew that it was way too many calories.  "Poor me - I'm fat and not allowed to eat this fattening food."  It is so easy to fall into that "poor me" trap and forget the progress I have made in recognizing when I am full.  Yes, I was full.  If the sandwich had been half the size, I would have been completely satisfied.  Today it was just hard to come to the "enough" conclusion in my brain.  


Supper - the leftover baked potato and veggies from last night.  I had a sugar-free snack size jello for dessert.


Snack - one light string cheese.


Steps -3,202 

Progress on the nine-patch

All the blocks, sashing and  rows are sewn together.

Here is a close-up of the applique block.

Next I will add two borders - one small red border and one larger blue border.

Today I am grateful for -
1.  Good friends
2.  An excellent lunch with included French Fries coated with Truffle Oil. 
3.  The wonderful colors of Fall.